Loving Aliveness


I peel back yet another layer
Of understanding the pain
That sends me staggering forward
Into the mouth of fire
andrew-walton-w andrew j-instagram-250708-unsplashUn-lodging the fear monster
That has been settled
For lifetimes
In the caverns of my belly
Awakening with a primal roar
Do I run or face it?
Writhing and thrashing
Filling my inner space
With its death-like stench
Tyrannising the instant,
which lost in its jaws
is sacrificed as sustenance

To an insatiable force
that engulfs my soul
and forces me into
its interminable darkness
the turning point, pivotal
emerges from a desire to live
in the light of the instant
and feel the warmth imbue me
to fight would be to feed
the greedy demon
face on I feel his force
and call upon my allays
jenna-beekhuis-44485-unsplashto infuse me with their light
their love and impulse for life

Its trunk alone, hard and determined
A pillar of strength
Anchors me solidly between sky and earth
Like a father teaching a toddler to walk
Supporting, the new growth
with its mighty structure
and then I call on the angel of angels
the light bringer, she infuses me
recognising the ancestral fear
whilst caressing my depths, rhythmically
Brushing the fear from my ovaries
She gets to work on my belly
Her radiance brings movement that
Scrapes away the sticky, oozing blackness
It hurts, my kidneys tighten and I vomit
Generations of terror that has no place
In a temple of light, where the angels


She passes the torch to Palo-Santo
A master of love
pree-bissessur-3504-unsplashFrom the deep humus of the forest floor
Decomposing matter into light
My body melts into being here
As I accept the earth as my home
Its massiveness fills every cell
I am worthy of my place and I am safe
Tear drops, cleansing and watering
This new life, pledging its loyalty
To loving aliveness, where fearful death
Has no place except as a distant memory
That was composted, decomposed
Cleansed, transformed by the living soil
Of my belly, so that the forest of dreams
Can flourish and love through me.

By Cathy Skipper

Cathy SkipperCathy Skipper trained in France as a herbalist and aromatherapist and is now living in Taos, New Mexico. Her journey in plant medicine lead her to working with plants intuitively and helping others to reconnect with nature. Using the alchemical journey towards individuation and aromatics, she guides healers and therapists in ways to heal their own wounds and find their personal myth in order to help others. She believes for men and women to embrace the divine feminine within, women need to lead the way. She is devoted to transforming the way women experience menopause, using intuitive plant communication, art and inner journey work, she leads them through their own authentic inner journeys towards true empowerment in order for them to become the wise women elders we so badly need.

Cathy is the author of two books, Aromatic Medicine and The Alchemy of Menopause


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